Yikes!

Well, here I am again - 3 years later! I am such a terrible blogger! My New Years Resolution (6 months later) is to start posting at least once a week!

I know that the so very few people that read this blog long ago are long gone, so hopefully someone will stumble upon my page...

Not alot new to report - starting another hot summer with lots of beach and pool time to be had, and L will be out of school in 3 more days! Starting 2nd grade next year - and turning 7 years old on July 2nd.

Having a "Spongebob" theme birthday party for her (per her request) at the end of June, so that should be a good time - I have sooo much preparing to do, but I always try to go big on birthdays!

Going to end for now, but expect to see alot more of me! Hope you enjoy a few recent pics of L.

Oh My...

I cannot believe that it has been a year since my last post.

I started this blog with all intentions of updating every few days. I thought I could handle that. Apparently not. I read other peoples blogs with abandon...amazed that they post every day (many do, some every few days). I find myself slightly jealous that I cannot do the same. Hmm..maybe I am being to hard on myself.

What to say...???

This year has sped past with many changes in my life. My beautiful baby girl just turned 4 on July 2nd. Singing Happy Birthday to her made me choke up. I cannot believe that she is growing so fast. She is sassy and smart. She make us laugh with her constant chatter and silliness. She has been referring to herself in the 3rd person (which is actually kind of creepy...ha). Every day is another adventure that she wants to explore.

I have stopped worrying about another child at this point...I am happy with Lauren for now and if she is the only one for me than that is ok. Right now in my life, I am grateful for what I have and that is that.

I will be posting more often (Pinky swear!). I will also be putting a few photos up of Lauren soon. There is soooo much going on right now that I will certainly have enough to write about in the coming weeks. Hopefully there are a few readers who haven't given up on me completely - and I always welcome new readers too! Feel free to leave a comment to let me know you are there!

Until next time...
Carrie

Happy Birthday...

First...let me start by saying HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my daughter. 3 years old already - I can't believe how the time flies. I was thinking back to the night she was born and it really seems not so long ago. Had a birthday party for her on Sunday and invited both of our families. Had a great turnout and good food and L had a wonderful time opening presents and playing with her cousins.

Secondly...another HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the good old USA. Sad to think that while we were watching "rockets bursting in air" we have too many military personnel overseas that are praying to God that they don't see any rockets.

Also - after my dr. appt last week, I was given Clomid to try. I have taken the provera to start my period and am now on Day 3 of my period. Today I start taking the Clomid (days 3-9) and then do timed intercourse on Days 13 - 16. We will see what happens!

Rescheduled

So the Dr. appt I had last week? Changed to this week - Thursday. I cannot even begin to describe how mad I was that I had to wait another week. This Dr office is very busy - and there is only the one Dr. The only reason I have not left this practice for another one is because I really like her. She seems to be in tune with what I want/need. She was willing to try the Metformin first to see if that would help with the PCOS. I plan on talking to her tomorrow and letting her know how disappointed I was with her scheduling issues and staff. I waited on hold for 24 mins while trying to reschedule for this week's appt. They kept picking up the phone and putting me back on hold. It was sooo frustrating.

If I do get pregnant, I am going to switch to another practice. Probably the one that I had when I was pregnant with my daughter. They have only 3 Dr's in the office, which is nice because you get a chance to get to know each one. There is one other practice that I was considering until I found out that they had 11 Dr's - that is WAY to many people - you rotate so that you meet them all before you deliver, but you don't have time to get to know them.

SOOOO - I will post again after seeing the Dr. tomorrow. Hopefully she will give me some nice baby drugs that will actually work...

Worries

My my, how time flies when I'm not posting! Truthfully, I have not had much to say. I wish I could post a few times a week about things that are happening but I don't think anyone wants to hear about the fence we are putting up, or how we dodged yet another Tropical Storm (thankfully!). That is all that has been going on with me as of late.

Tomorrow is my Dr appt. I am kind of nervous, kind of scared. I am hoping that she just gives me some drug cocktail that will help me get pregnant. I am physically ready to be pregnant. Mentally, not so much. I really want another baby, I just worry about other things. My job, how my daughter will react if we do have another baby...things like that.

For starters...my job. I love my job - not too many people can say this. I worry about what will happen when I get pregnant. Will I be able to do my job? Will it be too physically demanding? Will I have bleeding episodes like I did with my 1st pregnancy? How long will I be able to work? Its not like my job is grueling - I can't say that, and I only work part time (5.5 hours a day), but I will have to do lifting...and some of the stuff I pick up is heavy! I also will be working outside, during the summer, in Florida, when it is very hot. The truck I drive does have AC, but I get in and out of the truck the whole time I am working.

Secondly, my daughter will be 3 in July. I always imagined having my kids 2 years apart so they would be close and have things in common. I am worried that she will be upset and jealous that there is a new baby in the house that is demanding mommy and daddy's attention when she is used to being the only one. She still sleeps with us in our bed and I really want her in her own bed but it is becoming harder and harder to get this going. It is really becoming an issue with me and I feel like I am not getting the support I need from my husband. (This is a whole other issue that I will save for a future post). Most nights I fall asleep on the couch so I can have a few hours of uninterrupted sleep.

Anyway...I have get going to bed (aka: the couch). I will let you know how the Dr appt goes.

Oh - and if anyone has been thru anything similar to my worries, please feel free to share! Thanks!

Ramblings

Hi to all! I have been sooo behind in posting - it has been a very busy week. The minute I think I have time to post, something new comes up.

Went to my nephew's graduation on the 17th. Almost got teary-eyed seeing the "Class of 2006". I was the class of 1993 and it seems like yesterday that I was graduating - I can't believe that it was 13 years ago. My husband was the class of 1982 so you can imagine how depressed he was...lol. All in all it was a great ceremony and there was a very nice party afterwards.

On Saturday the 20th, we had a wedding to attend - it was very beautiful and L had a great time on the dance floor - I think if I got a disco ball and sound system for home she would dance all day! She kept saying "dance me!" (dance with me) to me and G so we would come out onto the floor and dance with her. I was kicking myself for forgetting my camera - there were many great photo opportunities and she looked soooo cute! After the wedding we had another graduation party to go to. This one was for our day care providers son. Needless to say, we were gone all day and didn't get home until 10:15 pm. It was a great day though and nice to get out of the house for awhile.

Still have not started my period again (last one was April 3-9). I had taken Provera to start that one and started charting as my Dr wanted. I don't really see the point of charting temps if I know for sure that I am NOT ovulating. The fact that I did not start my period for May is proof that I didn't ovulate. Also that there was no temp spike either. I don't see the Dr. again until June 15th - tried getting an earlier appt. but it is not possible. I just want to get started on Clomid or SOMETHING to see if that will help. I feel like I am wasting time charting for nothing. It's a little depressing.

Work is going good - one of the guys that started the same day as me left for a different job. We went out to Winghouse on Friday night to say goodbye to him. Had a good time until G called and said that L had woken up throwing up ALL over the bed (she sleeps with us) and that he had to clean her up, get the bed changed and calm her down - I kind of felt bad that he had to deal with that on his own - its easier when you have an extra set of hands to help. Oh well - he managed and L was fine the next morning.

Busy as a Freakin' Bee

So I tell you I am going to post 2 times a week and here it is a week later than that and I am just now updating. I know! I am soooo lazy sometimes! Actually, it has been a pretty busy week. I have been working for my former job for a few days while the girl that took my place took a couple days off. I was only there for about 5 hours a day in the AM because I have my current job to get to by 2:30ish. I really did like that job and had worked there for almost 10 years. It was at a printing shop and I started out by running the copier and doing menial things. Moved onto finishing (Bindery), customer service and then into the Graphics Dept where I taught myself the ins and outs of many graphics programs from Adobe, Corel, Microsoft and lots of others. I also taught myself both the PC and Mac platforms and am very proud of my accomplishments. Seriously, when I first went to the grahics end I didn't even know how to boot up a computer. YIKES!

Anyway, when my daughter was born, my plan was to be a SAHM. Of course reality sets in and for some people it is just not feasible to have 1 person working. I was also adamant about not putting her in daycare that young. So I ended up taking her to work with me until she was 8 months old. I had my own office there so I could bring a blanket, toys, play pen and anything else she needed. I also cut my hours back to just working every other day. After leaving there, I went to work at Auto Trader for about a year. The hours were from 9pm - 2am and were perfect for me - L would be asleep when I left and I could still manage to get about 6 hours sleep before she woke up in the morning. And then we would take a nap together. That job was a favorite of mine too and was very hard to leave.

When my current job became available I had serious doubts about being able to do the work. It would require about 5 hours on the road, stopping at customer locations and retrieving packages. Sometimes heavy lifting. It wasn't like it was going to be very hard "mentally" but physically, I am not in the greatest of shape. This job has actually been good tho and I have lots about 15lbs. All in all, I love this job as well. The hours are great (2:30 - 8:00pm), I still make it home in time for a late dinner with my DH and daughter, I get to put L to bed for the night and wake up with her in the morning and spend most of the day together. She goes to daycare from about 2:30 until her daddy picks her up at 6pm and she LOVES it! I am thankful that she does not go full time just yet but soon she will be ready to do just that.

Well - off to the store I go, so I will post in a few days (hahaha). Maybe I can get in a few lines between the 2 graduation ceremonies, 1 graduation party, and wedding we have to go to this week. Busy Busy!